hey maself!

this post is dedicated to maself...like always..talking to maself is da best thing that i can do when i feel alone, sad, bored n ext....today i want to remind me maself how often i make the man i love with all ma heart hurt because of me,ma bad behaviour... please!please!please! dont make he sad anymore....because u urself know that u can do nothing when he sad...u will be more sad than him...than u'll become thinner..damn..he will dislike u poor gurl...

i always think how to be prettier among others in front of him...n now..ma english is very like hell language i think...and i'm totally lost ma hope to be happy for today...yes i'm not happy rite now...damn me little evil...oh...what the *&%#&# that i'm talking about...then goodbye...i just wanna 'layan blues' rite now!

Yes! he's my soul!!

ya...i just wanna say that he is my soulmate, my mr.right n my everything.tq.
i don't want to make u hurt agaian n again...i'll keep trying...till i realize that there is no more soul in me...thats the day i died...

i wanna say sorry....

dear darling...
 i am very sorry....u know wat?? i just realize that i make a very big mistake today after i read ur msg...ok.saya mintak maaf byk2 walaupun sy tau x layak pn nk minta maaf dr awk sbab awk pn dh muak dengan sikap saya ni kan. lately sy jd sgt pelupa dan sgt biul2 huhu tp tu bukan alasan untuk sebabkn awk kena marah ngn kawan2 awk kan...huhu... saya tau awk sgt sibuk dgn keje awk dan memandangkan sy dh biul2 sikit...sy ambil keputusan utk elakkan diri dr terus menjadi punca awk bad mood im so bad  saya kena jadikan diri sy x biul dulu...hihihi oklah...sy tgh keja ni sambil biul2 sikit...sakit kepala lah...kenapa yek??bila fikir lebih je sakit kepala....ya Allah semoga result hari isnin ni membuatkan sy gembira...moga sy sihat sepenuhnya...kesan bius waktu operation haritu betul2 buat sy yg sedia pelupa ni jd lg bertambah pelupa...than maybe one day every body won't accept me in their life...huhu